Mummy Is Guilty....

When we shifted to Jerudong, we asked Samuel to sleep at his own room. During that time, he was 2 years 11 months old, while Jesse was only 6 months old. Since she was fully on breast milk and I'm not good at latching her, I will wake up twice to pump, ie. 1 am and 5 am. She usually wakes up 3 times a night. And because she does not drink a lot during night, I only wake up twice to pump for her 3 times demand.

As mentioned in one of the previous postings, Samuel still drinks at night when we shifted. Most of the time daddy have to keep on walking in and out of the rooms. Both of us are really drained out. After 4 months, I decided to take control of his drinking habit.

Daddy was not really supportive of me. He feels that we should allow him to drink as long as he requested. Stopping him from drinking at night only benefits us and not the child. I feel that stopping him from drinking at night benefits everyone. Samuel can have better sleep without waking and its also better for his teeth.

Despite the disagreements from daddy, I am willing to take up the challenge on weaning him. It was not easy. There were a few occassions that made me feel bad about the whole trainning.

When I started the training, I requested Samuel to sleep through and not to wake up to ask for milk. I have to keep reminding him that he is not allowed to come to our room and have to sleep through the night.

Throughout the training, there were a few times he woke up in the middle of the night and he sat infront of our room. As I have told him not to wake us, he sat quietly outside our room. I only realised he was outside our room when I woke up to pump milk. We have no idea how long he has been there.

I then brought him back to his room and asked him to sleep, he dare not say anything but just to stare at his milk powder and his milk bottle. I do not know what to do but just pretend nothing happened. I really felt so bad.....

There was one occassion he woke up in the middle of the night requesting daddy to sleep with him. Both of us were very surprised as he normally doesn't want daddy to sleep with him. To avoid Jesse from waking up, daddy agreed to sleep with him. When mummy left both of them in the room, mummy over heard Samuel requesting milk from daddy. Mummy then walked to his room. Samuel quickly lay down and requested mummy to go to sleep. Right after mummy left, again he requested for milk. Mummy goes in again and Samuel looked at mummy crying.

It really hurts me to see him cry for milk. I gave in and daddy made milk for him. He then requested mummy to sleep with him. He doesn't want daddy after the milk hehehe....

We kept reminding him before bed that he is taking the last bottle of milk (We ran out of milk). We will go buy it again the next day and he can not wake up to ask for milk.

It took about 2 weeks to completely stop him from drinking. Within that 2 weeks, there were certain days he wakes up for milk twice, some days once and few days none. During the training, not only it tortured Samuel, it also torturesd me. I feel tortured not because I have to wake up to make milk for him, but because of the guilt.